To the one I loved the most


You are the kind of man who I will search for a thousand lifetimes just to find and love you again.

You are the kind of man who will teach me a life lesson and so with love.

You are the kind of man who will do crazy stuff just to give me smiles.

You are the kind of man who will do everything just to see the smiles you gave to me.

You are the man who deserves all the efforts in the world because you made me feel all the love I needed to be happy.

You are the kind of man I will cherish 'till the rest of the day. You are the first thought in the morning so with last in the night.

You are enough to be the woman's everything. You are definitely the reason why I smile every single time. You gave me so much reason to be frown yet you gave me so much to be happier. 

It's not because I'm happy with you but I'm happy with you.

You gave me so much to live on. 
You help me to be the best version of myself.
You became the person who I want to be with.
You are the reason for every heartbeat of my heart.
You are the reason why my happy hormones are excited every time I see you.
You are my refuge every time I am exhausted.
You are my moon in the sky full of stars.
You are my north star every time I'm lost.
You are the reason why I lose myself and without you, I always wanted to be lost again.

How can you forget a person who gave you so much to remember? 

And even if the time comes to separate us, I will never ever forget the person who teaches me how to sacrifice and how to love truly.

You really deserve all the love in the world.

I want to thank you for not giving me flowers, material things to prove that you love me. I want to thank you for giving me time every time you're with me, importance even if I'm not around, care that I need, encouragement every time I don't feel confident, and love despite difficulties.





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